I am a successful failure.
I guess 2014 was more challenging than I thought. I can not believe with the momentum I had created, that I dropped the preverbal blog-ball. More like the “blog ball” was actually a bomb that I could hear ticking but ignored it until it blew up in my face. The blow up made me realize something…
I was not ready.
Not that my heart wasn’t ready. I am the Queen of passionate endeavors. Everything I start, I dive in…and most times over my head. The ironic thing is I really don’t know how to swim. And obviously, I didn’t know how to sustain this blog beast either.
So why am I back? Two reasons.
1. Though I failed in attempt, God never let my heart concede defeat. Yes, the GOD I hope in was the only reason I could look at this page again without feeling like a total waste of blog space. My husband is a great support. Always has been. My family and friends, especially my kids, encouraged me all the time. But I needed something bigger than flesh to spark in me something greater than fear. HE did that for me.
2. Though the fall failure marked my first step, I acknowledge the success that I got up and I am still stepping. I am still trying. I am still learning. I am so glad that I failed so that I could learn about myself, about this work, and about the process. I am a successful failure; and I’m better for it.
So my next endeavor is helping me with me. It’s a challenge by Jeff Goins, an author and pusher of all things writing. In order to motivate others to achieve their passions in writing, he has written several books dedicated to that end and has organized a challenge for people like myself to hone their skills while at the same time shaking off the excuses that stop us from succeeding. The My 500 Words challenge challenges writers to write 500 words for 31 days. The words do not have to be published, just written out, on purpose. Again, Queen of New Starts here embarking on another journey. But a bit wiser, a bit more humble, but also a bit more hopeful that this time…
This time success will come with the win.
What are you attempting this year? Are you willing to fail if it will eventually lead to your success?
Keep challenging yourself and always stay,