And that’s a wrap.
I’m done. I’ve thrown in the proverbial dustrag as my sign that I have officially canned this challenge. I tried, Sarah Mae. I really did. Your book 31 days to Clean is inspiring, heartfelt, knowledgeable…everything a guided challenge book should be. Nonetheless, I had to let it go.
It’s not you, it’s me.
If you go back to week 2 and week 3 of this challenge, you can see that there has been a struggle throughout Peachie Cleans. I have had to fight through my attitude. I have had to conquer my schedule and life complications. This past week, I just came to make peace with the inevitable and can the challenge…as in throw it in the garbage can like I was supposed to be doing with the trash and clutter this week.
So what does this mean…Did I fail?
I am very much a pass or fail person. Give me the checklist and I’ll make my marks. When I complete an assignment, it better be handed back to me with a gold star. So when you ask me did I fail this challenge? It’s hard to answer yes. And no.
The goal of this blog was always to perform a challenge so that I could better myself. I have succeeded at the bettering despite my checklist being completed. Sara Mae does a great job reminding her readers that our homes are not badges to wear or status symbols for acknowledgement’s sake. My mission was simple: gain more skills so that my home can be: a safe place where my kids can dream and develop and flourish, a loving place for my family, friends, and neighbors, a tranquil haven amidst the chaos of life, and a recycling center where we give back as much as or more than we take out of life. My mission is to honor the purpose of this physical structure and not to be trapped by its upkeep.
The message of this book did change a lot how I viewed housework and gave me some thoughtful insights on my perception of myself while doing these not so mundane but absolutely necessary and honorable tasks.
But according to my very own (why did I ever make these) rules, as you can see when it came to checklists of the challenge I bombed.
- Don’t skip any tasks no matter what. (Which makes this officially a bonus challenge since we will crest 31 days because of week 3 repeating) FAILED: I TOTALLY SKIPPED DAYS
- Don’t move on to the next task if the former isn’t completed. (See above footnote)
FAILED: I TOTALLY MOVED ON WHEN I SKIPPED DAYS
- Do tell the blogging world how many (or how few) of the challenges I was able to master that week (check Facebook page Just Peachie or twitter @justpeachiemenu for updates or rantings, whatever you choose to see)
FAILED: DIDN’T TELL ANYTHING BECAUSE I WAS SO BEHIND ALL THE TIME
- Do all tasks with a
goodgoing-to-try-my best attitude
NEUTRAL: WELL…I TRIED.
- Do find a life lesson each week to share
PASS: LIFE LESSONS ARE EASY TO FIND IN FAILURE BECAUSE THAT’S ALL YOU HAVE
So there you have it. Challenge canned. I’m not going to make excuses and I’m not going to sugar coat my failings. I don’t have to do that. I don’t want to do that. I want the failure to sting a little. I want to imagine you shaking your head as you read this, a little disappointed and a little miffed. I want to think on what went wrong because I want to grow as a person.
I’m tired of having it all together. I need to fail sometimes. And I need others to know about it.
How awesome could life be if we weren’t ashamed to wear our failures? What if showing our scarlet letters didn’t separate us from each other through condemnation but brought us closer through empathy, compassion, and connectedness. I believe that they can. I want my challenges to inspire you to make and meet your own challenges in life as well. As we conquer them, we will celebrate. As we struggle in them, we can support. As we fail, we can them. I am not done with this challenge for life; I am just canning it for now. I will put it on my shelf of challenges yet to meet. And one day, I will open it up again and the Peachy Clean challenge will be fresh again.
We don’t have to let our failures beat us forever. Can ’em. Grow some more. Train some more. Get more support. Then attack that can again. Who knows? Maybe you’ll be opening up a can of you know what on that challenge the next time around!
That’s what I’m gonna do! And pass or fail I’m gonna stay